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So, amazingly my mom supports me getting top surgery, like I've always wanted. The problem is, as most of you know, we're broke. I wanted to know if any of you had ideas for fundraisers or things like that. Commissions won't work because I've made under $100 in the 5 years I've been on here, due to people requesting then saying never mind once the art's done. I'm trying to come up with something but I have no clue. I'm asking my mother if she can just not get me birthday or Christmas presents this year and to just give me money to save up lol But seriously these surgeries can be really expensive and I can't see us making that kind of money any time soon, so if you have an idea, PLEASE let me know!!!
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So, apparently my mom not only told my dad I was bi-gendered. She told my little sister too. :P I wasn't sure how my dad would react but just like my mom, the next day, he gave me a hug and a kiss and said he loved me. My sister didn't give two shits! She even said "Do you think Cassie would have been more comfortable in school if she knew sooner?" (even though I already did lol) Anna NEVER says stuff that seems like she cares. But she was actually thinking back and wondering if I would have been happier. I had a feeling my dad knew by the tone in his voice but he still didn't say anything about it or act like I was different. I know it will take more time for him to fully understand but the fact that he didn't go off and deny it or say he wouldn't respect it means a lot to me. <3 I think he's just confused by it and doesn't know how to respond XD My mom doesn't even care if I wear my binder that I got for cosplay! She just said 'Whatever makes you comfortable." This big move to my aunt's made us all kind of grow and learn to accept that things won't always be the way you want and that's why I came out when I did. I explained to my mom on our walk this morning that it felt right because being bi-gendered seemed so minimal compared to everything the family was going through and that it was something I shouldn't even bother hiding anymore. I keep getting surprise after surprise! 
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I have the best mother on the face of this planet. I decided to come out to her today and this was the response.


Me- Hey. There's something I want to tell you and I've wanted to for a long time but I've been scared of your reaction. I just want to know you won't kick me out or love me any less first.


Mom- I would never kick you out or love you less. I love you completely. Tell me.
Mom- You identify as a male?
Mom- Don’t leave me hanging.


Me- Oh my god, thank you so much! I'm bi-gendered. I've known for years now but I've been terrified of what would happen if I told anyone. I've wanted to get top surgery since I was 14. I don't want you to refer to me as a guy or anything because I'm your daughter but bi-gendered means a person that feels like both genders. That's why I always cosplay guys and love pictures at conventions. I can be me. I never correct people when they call me a guy because it doesn't bother me at all. It would feel strange from you because I've already established a female role around you. I'm happy with being bi-gendered and have no problems with it. I've just been scared of telling anyone in the family. My friends know and accept it and I just wanted you to accept it too. I know you're probably thinking it's either a phase or are going to try and think of anything else it could be just like I did. I tried for many years to find another 'normal' answer but I know what I am and now that I'm 100% content with it, I wanted to let you know. It won't change our relationship in any way, you don't have to tell anyone if you don't want to. I just felt so suppressed keeping it all to myself.



Mom- We are fine. I'm not even surprised sweetheart. I love you.


Me- Thank you so much


Mom- You are so welcome. Nothing has changed at all. I'm not going to tell dad I don't think. I don't feel like dealing with him. (lol a sense of humor even now)


Me- Haha. That's okay. I just wanted to know you were still okay with me.


Mom- Of course I am. I love you. 


Me- Love you too.
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We got another Justin Borque wannabe. What the fuck happened to my home town? 2 lockdowns in 2 years. If he's got the same plans as Justin, he'd better run as fast as his feet can carry him. Whether I live in Moncton anymore or not, it's a peaceful town and even if they do take someone down, he'll know he fucked with the wrong city once that search dog sinks it's teeth into his leg and drags his sorry ass into the dirt. Like I said when Justin was running around, these people will never be welcomed in this city and it takes a lot more that guns to break our spirits. Stay safe and stay inside everyone. If he enters a home, you do what you need to keep your loved ones safe. Don't back down and if it comes down to it, fight for your life. Wish I was there to choke hold him until the k9 unit arrived. If this sorry son of a bitch hurts anyone from my home, he'd best do the smart thing and give up or flee the country before I get to him. He's close to where my grandmother lives and she can't defend herself. Good luck.
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Yo! I'm sure you can guess from the title what this is about lol. I've been thinking about top surgery since I was about 16. It's been 7 and a half years and I still can't get it out of my head so I know it's not a phase. I'll stop thinking about it for a while but when I do think about it, it seems like it's all I can think about for a few months. I've looked up the prices for it and they vary but that shouldn't be too bad once I save up. I even asked my mother how much it cost her to have her breast reduction lol. I know it's a real option for me and I know if I was told I had to have them removed for health reasons (cancer and things like that) I wouldn't bat an eye before going into surgery. It's not that I hate having them or anything like that. I just feel like I'd be more comfortable without them. However, just like my sexuality, I'm not feeling rushed. I'm really happy about that. I'm okay with having breasts but I know I've always felt more masculine than feminine. Sure, I'm okay with being female but it feels like I'm settling in a way. I don't want bottom surgery because that scares the living bejesus outta me lol Not sure why I decided to share this in a journal to be honest. Just didn't have anyone to talk with I guess XD If any of you have thoughts or experiences on the topic, or if you've thought of it yourself, feel free to comment below. :)
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So, amazingly my mom supports me getting top surgery, like I've always wanted. The problem is, as most of you know, we're broke. I wanted to know if any of you had ideas for fundraisers or things like that. Commissions won't work because I've made under $100 in the 5 years I've been on here, due to people requesting then saying never mind once the art's done. I'm trying to come up with something but I have no clue. I'm asking my mother if she can just not get me birthday or Christmas presents this year and to just give me money to save up lol But seriously these surgeries can be really expensive and I can't see us making that kind of money any time soon, so if you have an idea, PLEASE let me know!!!
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: Your Entertainment-Adam Lambert
  • Reading: Nuffin' (nothing)
  • Watching: youtube
  • Playing: Sims 4!!!
  • Eating: nuffin'
  • Drinking: Tea~

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So, I finally got Myles to the vet and he’s not in the best of shape, though the major issues are further down the line in his life. His heart murmur is still low because he’s so young but he has a light bacterial and fungal outbreak over his skin due to allergies I was unaware of. I bought a medicated shampoo while I was there so that is under control. The vet also told me contrary to popular belief, the surgery to fix his knee caps isn’t something to do later but something to prevent things like arthritis, which he is already showing signs of. He’s only 3 and a half. She doesn’t think he will live as long as most Maltese but I’d rather he have a short, comfortable life than a long, unhealthy one. Therefore, I’ve decided to get him his knee surgery as soon as I can. It is between $2000 and $2500 plus the money for him post-op wheelchair. As some of you know, I’m trying to get into the doTERRA business but for that I have to spend money to make money so handing over that much money right now is impossible. I’ve decided to ask for your help. If any of you would like to donate to help Myles get his surgery, please note me. Whether it 5 cents or a dollar, anything is a help.

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I love writing stories and drawing and my friend told me about DA so I couldn't help but make an account! It's kind of obvious I write a lot of yaoi too. :P My main hobby is cosplaying. It's tons of fun! I'm currently working on a Red XIII fursuit for the Animaritime. :) I also am working towards completing my goal of opening my own rescue ranch.

Current Residence: NA
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Favourite cartoon character: tsume from wolf's rain
Personal Quote: "depression dies before you do."
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sunstroke-art Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Lovely Shoujo Emoji (Huggy Hug) [V2] 
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grandpatoenail Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2014
yay! *huggles*
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You have been Hugged Lovely Shoujo Emoji (Huggy Hug) [V2]  *Hug* Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!) 

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Cloudie-Skye Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:hug: :cake: :party: Happy Birthday :party: :cake: :hug:
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grandpatoenail Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014
thankies!
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Talliya Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday Cass! :cake::party:
coolrudeshadesplz Reno Boogie for Catty coolrudeshadesplz Jumping Yasao coolrudeshadesplz 
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grandpatoenail Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014
Thanks! *huggles*
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Kyruto-Chan Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday reno!!
I used to be Cloud Strife and I know I'm not anymore I'm just acute lil puppy now but Imma share some cookies with you ok? :D
Want me to write you anything? ^^
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grandpatoenail Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014
yay! *noms cookies* Thanks for the happy birthday! You don't have to write me anything :)
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Kyruto-Chan Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:huggle: Yup ^^
And you sure? O:
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