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One week, 3 suicides (now 5). These are FB statuses from trans friends of mine in that same fuckin' week.


"Steven went missing from Facebook on Friday (I think). His girlfriend said his dad wanted them to breakup, and threatened to kick him out. He hasn't been to school. He was starting testosterone soon. My friend said his dad wanted him to be a straight girl.(This young MAN hasn’t been able to contact his GF or even his own brother. We believe his mother took his phone so he couldn’t contact the group.)



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My step father kicked me and my mom out of our house today. I told him I was transgender and things got complicated and he pulled a knife on me. So now we're at a friend's house. And my dad said that he would let me move in with him for a while. I told him about the situation and he said my life was more important than my gender. So I think that means he's starting to accept me. By the way does anyone know how Steven is doing? I'm really worried about him." (this friend will probably be calling the police for that sorry excuse for a man's death threat.)



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Hey guys. I've been dealing with a whole lot lately. Yesterday I didn't get out of bed AT ALL, didn't eat or drink anything. I've just been so depressed lately and I think it's getting worse. Especially when my guardians (my grandparents) make me go to their stupid apostolic church. When I went last Sunday this girl who had been a friend of mine gave me a card saying that she wrote something in it for me. This is what it said; "To my best friend, the coolest friend I met in church. I'm glad you're a GIRL not a BOY. Here is a card for you and for God to share his love for you. I love you my friend, ______." She wrote my birth name at the end. Seriously, with all I've been going through, this made me break down. Day by day I get more tempted to cut my own hair. But my mom (who's wanting to get custody of me) has been telling me to wait. "Please do this for me and don't cut it. You're being selfish wanting to cut your hair. Some men have long hair. Sweetie, you're hurting me by wanting to."

 

All from different people in a matter of days.

Oh and one saved a dog's life but why should that matter?


"Just rescued this dog from the streets. 
 don't mind his bald spots that's were i shaved his dreads off. His name is Ewok." 
scontent-iad.xx.fbcdn.net/hpho… (must be a terrible person. I mean come on. She's trans, right?)


Oh look! Within seconds of putting this journal up, another friend had this status to put up!

"
I lost my friend who is against transgender people. I was sticking up for those who want to be girl or boy. She had no right to tell me that people who change there gender are *confused*. It pissed me the freaken off that she was judging. I hate those who judge. I mean come on... I am not crazy for thinking in my mind I want to cuddle,talk with,go on walks, go to the movies or travel with a f2m or m2f. Maybe that's why I want good friends in here who will understand me because I'll understand u. U would be so special to me that I wouldn't let anyone harm u. I love people! That's why I am social!"

Oh and another!

"A young man died on 2/26 by stepping into traffic. He was transitioning into a man and as a result of fearsome bullying, he ended his life.

We are one group. It does not matter how many different names we use, we are still one group.

41% of us will attempt suicide sometime during our life. Some of us will tragically succeed.

Please talk. If you're deep, and it looks like the only light is at the front of head on traffic, then stop and text one of your brothers or sisters. I don't know any of you, but I will drop EVERYTHING to listen to you. I will help you, as will all of us.

Please take that moment and reach out for help.

We are 41 and must stick together.

Love"


  • Mood: Steaming
  • Listening to: Your Entertainment-Adam Lambert
  • Reading: Nuffin' (nothing)
  • Watching: youtube
  • Playing: Sims 4!!!
  • Eating: nuffin'
  • Drinking: Tea~

Since joining the Transgender Friendly Facebook group, I’ve had MANY people come to me, saying they need to talk and most have either caused self harm or even attempted suicide. There was a young trans woman who recently committed suicide by jumping off the Golden Gate bridge. Her last Facebook status was saying she was sorry and that being trans sucked. The status also linked a picture of the water below her just before she jumped. According to her other statuses, she’d been molested because people thought they had a right to since she was trans. If anyone is having trouble like this, PLEASE visit the Facebook group. No matter you gender sexuality or anything, you will not be judged there. You will be welcomed with open arms. Please tell someone if you’re having suicidal thoughts. Also, if you’re ever caught in a dangerous situation like she was with a molester, do exactly what my father has always told me to do and you fight tooth and nail to stay alive. If it’s life or death, you gouge his or her eye without thinking twice. I know it sounds terrible but NO ONE deserves molestation, rape or any of that. And if your life is in danger you make the choice of whose gonna win that fight! When I say tooth and nail, I mean it! I’ve had to hurt to stay alive before and I don’t regret it because I was the one attacked and no way in hell was I letting them chose if I died or not. Whether it’s racial, sexual, gender based discrimination, or anything of the sort, find help lines and support groups. You’re far from alone in this fight and there are many people who have your back, even if you don’t know them.

www.facebook.com/groups/393844…

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  • Reading: Nuffin' (nothing)
  • Watching: youtube
  • Playing: Sims 4!!!
  • Eating: nuffin'
  • Drinking: Tea~
Well, this is interesting. I had a chat with someone today and had a bit of a premonition. They brought up 'alter-egos' and asked me if that might be the case. They wanted me to be 100% sure of being trans-male before surgeries and whatnot, which makes complete sense but I was not expecting that. I gave it thought and realized while I do feel far more masculine than feminine, I have noticed I'm not as insistent as most transgendered people to get the surgeries right now, change everything to male over night and stuff like that. They brought up my late twin brother I had in the womb and how his death gave me all of his nutrients and testosterone and how he basically gave me a male mind from receiving all of his genetics. Things like 'bi-gendered' and 'gender-fluid' came up and we talked about how I like being referred to as male by most people but I don't really care what my family calls me. Basically, they threw me for a loop XD In my mind, being male is more natural but since I was female before my brother died, my brain may be holding onto what little femininity I might have. If I was born male, I would have preferred it and I still feel like top surgery is a real option for me, but I'm not 'panicked', if that makes sense. Needless to say, I'll be giving it lots of thought and talking about it to people since transitioning is permanent and it's important to think and re-think everything. It's an interesting concept to me as well. It's kind of like 'Cassie' deals with family and most issues but 'Ronan' (this possible 'alter-ego') is who I would have been if born 100% male. It's possible I may have grown used to 'Cassie' but 'Ronan' is the one that socializes most and things like that. Both being trans-male and bi-gendered/gender fluid make complete sense to me. I notice little things like how I'll want my hair cut short but NEVER let the barber touch my pony tail. LOL My long hair stays no matter what! So, I'm exploring this possibility because I wouldn't want to go through a full transition then regret it. That would just be awful! So, this may be the case, it may not. Only time and patience will tell. Wish me luck on figuring this craziness out XD Also, feel free to comment if you've ever experienced or heard of similar stories. It would really help. I just wish this shit wasn't so complicated :P Long story short, I don't care how this turns out as long as I stay who I am. Whether I'm trans, bi-gendered, gender-fluid, gender blind, or whatever, I just want to stay the PERSON I am. :) While this is irritating in terms of having to think this over again, I'd much rather do so than just take the chance and regret it. Meh, I'll figure it out some day XD
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  • Listening to: Your Entertainment-Adam Lambert
  • Reading: Nuffin' (nothing)
  • Watching: youtube
  • Playing: Sims 4!!!
  • Eating: nuffin'
  • Drinking: Tea~

I made a Facebook status the other day, saying- “I've been chatting with a lot of my trans friends and can't help but notice they either seem to have a feeling of self loathing or depression so I wanted to see if I could help change some perspective! What do you LIKE about having been born trans? Sounds crazy, right? It's not. I'm glad that I'm not ignorant to know what it feels like to be in the shoes of the opposite gender. I'm glad to know their needs and struggles so I can help. If I wasn't born with such a difficult issue, I would be nowhere near as strong as I am now for overcoming sadness over it and accepting myself. It's given me a much better idea of what 'beauty' is as well. I know I'm really a male but knowing what a woman needs and how to truly communicate with them is something I'm happy I was able to learn. So, what is one thing you can positively take away from being trans?”

There were a lot of good things people said once I kind of turned the tables but some people really hadn’t learned anything from it. I kind of feel bad because there’s always something good to take away from bad. If you’ve never felt fear, you won’t know courage. If you’ve never felt sadness, you’ll never know true happiness. If you’ve never felt defeated, you’ll never know the feeling of triumph. So, I figured I’d ask you guys the same question. What’s something you went through or are going through that you can take something good away from?

 

I also made a status, saying- “So, I noticed a lot of my friends have disappeared since I fully came out as trans-male. Just doin' a quick check. If you're still a friend, please like so I'll know. If not, keep on scrollin'.

And I got 40 likes and climbing. That tells me another good thing. I’ve learned to choose my friends wisely over the years and that I have amazing people in my life. I wouldn’t have learned this many people were behind me if I didn’t need to put that status up.

  • Mood: Triumph
  • Listening to: Your Entertainment-Adam Lambert
  • Reading: Nuffin' (nothing)
  • Watching: youtube
  • Playing: Sims 4!!!
  • Eating: nuffin'
  • Drinking: Tea~
One week, 3 suicides (now 5). These are FB statuses from trans friends of mine in that same fuckin' week.


"Steven went missing from Facebook on Friday (I think). His girlfriend said his dad wanted them to breakup, and threatened to kick him out. He hasn't been to school. He was starting testosterone soon. My friend said his dad wanted him to be a straight girl.(This young MAN hasn’t been able to contact his GF or even his own brother. We believe his mother took his phone so he couldn’t contact the group.)



"
My step father kicked me and my mom out of our house today. I told him I was transgender and things got complicated and he pulled a knife on me. So now we're at a friend's house. And my dad said that he would let me move in with him for a while. I told him about the situation and he said my life was more important than my gender. So I think that means he's starting to accept me. By the way does anyone know how Steven is doing? I'm really worried about him." (this friend will probably be calling the police for that sorry excuse for a man's death threat.)



"
Hey guys. I've been dealing with a whole lot lately. Yesterday I didn't get out of bed AT ALL, didn't eat or drink anything. I've just been so depressed lately and I think it's getting worse. Especially when my guardians (my grandparents) make me go to their stupid apostolic church. When I went last Sunday this girl who had been a friend of mine gave me a card saying that she wrote something in it for me. This is what it said; "To my best friend, the coolest friend I met in church. I'm glad you're a GIRL not a BOY. Here is a card for you and for God to share his love for you. I love you my friend, ______." She wrote my birth name at the end. Seriously, with all I've been going through, this made me break down. Day by day I get more tempted to cut my own hair. But my mom (who's wanting to get custody of me) has been telling me to wait. "Please do this for me and don't cut it. You're being selfish wanting to cut your hair. Some men have long hair. Sweetie, you're hurting me by wanting to."

 

All from different people in a matter of days.

Oh and one saved a dog's life but why should that matter?


"Just rescued this dog from the streets. 
 don't mind his bald spots that's were i shaved his dreads off. His name is Ewok." 
scontent-iad.xx.fbcdn.net/hpho… (must be a terrible person. I mean come on. She's trans, right?)


Oh look! Within seconds of putting this journal up, another friend had this status to put up!

"
I lost my friend who is against transgender people. I was sticking up for those who want to be girl or boy. She had no right to tell me that people who change there gender are *confused*. It pissed me the freaken off that she was judging. I hate those who judge. I mean come on... I am not crazy for thinking in my mind I want to cuddle,talk with,go on walks, go to the movies or travel with a f2m or m2f. Maybe that's why I want good friends in here who will understand me because I'll understand u. U would be so special to me that I wouldn't let anyone harm u. I love people! That's why I am social!"

Oh and another!

"A young man died on 2/26 by stepping into traffic. He was transitioning into a man and as a result of fearsome bullying, he ended his life.

We are one group. It does not matter how many different names we use, we are still one group.

41% of us will attempt suicide sometime during our life. Some of us will tragically succeed.

Please talk. If you're deep, and it looks like the only light is at the front of head on traffic, then stop and text one of your brothers or sisters. I don't know any of you, but I will drop EVERYTHING to listen to you. I will help you, as will all of us.

Please take that moment and reach out for help.

We are 41 and must stick together.

Love"


  • Mood: Steaming
  • Listening to: Your Entertainment-Adam Lambert
  • Reading: Nuffin' (nothing)
  • Watching: youtube
  • Playing: Sims 4!!!
  • Eating: nuffin'
  • Drinking: Tea~

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So, I finally got Myles to the vet and he’s not in the best of shape, though the major issues are further down the line in his life. His heart murmur is still low because he’s so young but he has a light bacterial and fungal outbreak over his skin due to allergies I was unaware of. I bought a medicated shampoo while I was there so that is under control. The vet also told me contrary to popular belief, the surgery to fix his knee caps isn’t something to do later but something to prevent things like arthritis, which he is already showing signs of. He’s only 3 and a half. She doesn’t think he will live as long as most Maltese but I’d rather he have a short, comfortable life than a long, unhealthy one. Therefore, I’ve decided to get him his knee surgery as soon as I can. It is between $2000 and $2500 plus the money for him post-op wheelchair. As some of you know, I’m trying to get into the doTERRA business but for that I have to spend money to make money so handing over that much money right now is impossible. I’ve decided to ask for your help. If any of you would like to donate to help Myles get his surgery, please note me. Whether it 5 cents or a dollar, anything is a help.

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I love writing stories and drawing and my friend told me about DA so I couldn't help but make an account! It's kind of obvious I write a lot of yaoi too. :P My main hobby is cosplaying. It's tons of fun! I'm currently working on a Red XIII fursuit for the Animaritime. :) I also am working towards completing my goal of opening my own rescue ranch.

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yay! *huggles*
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Happy birthday Cass! :cake::party:
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Happy birthday reno!!
I used to be Cloud Strife and I know I'm not anymore I'm just acute lil puppy now but Imma share some cookies with you ok? :D
Want me to write you anything? ^^
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yay! *noms cookies* Thanks for the happy birthday! You don't have to write me anything :)
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:huggle: Yup ^^
And you sure? O:
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